Its Been A Long Time Since I Last Blogged.. Too Long I Suppose... Maybe So Much Has Happened Over The Past Year Or So That I Forgotten That I Left This To Be Filled With Useless Webs!..Aye..I Guess I Might Start New And Continue Producing Some Things That May Or May Not Be Interesting..I Wish I Could Turn The Hands Of Time..I Guess I Felt Guilty Of What Happened..Or Perhaps I Just Wished To See That Face Again..Its Been So Long..But I Dont Want Anyone's Sympathy For Me..
But Other Than That?..I Dont Really Know Myself..I Wish I Could Be Happy..But I Feel So Empty Ever Since I Came Here....Wonder Why....Perhaps Its My Fault...Time Again And Again I Wished I Could Move Forward But I Hit Myself To The Wall And Continue Grieving On What It Should Be Forgotten...Perhaps Its Too Painful To Move Forward.. I Wish "You" Coulda Tell Me Its Alright And It Never Happened..But In Truth It Did.And Its Been So Long... Once Again I Guess I Guess I Surrounded Myself With All This Grief Inside And Never Let It Crawl Out Of My Heart...I Guess I Shall Stop For Now....I Probably Not Make Sense By Now..Till Next Time
Saturday, November 03, 2007
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Facts On 18/5/06 Post
Well People Maybe Asking And Why Would I Relate This To Everyone And The World..These Answers Can Only be Answered By Your Own View..Feel Free To Comment And Tag My Board. Or Msg Me
On My Msn:- m_utd86@hotmail.com for those who havent gotten it yet.
To Answer Your Question How Long Did I Take..Actually when i was scanning thru my poems in my folder..i spotted that there was an Unfinished Poem which had a few verses.then i thought to myself that it may be a good idea to add this and to publish on what the world has become. it only started wif these few verses
Have you ever felt emptiness before?
I guess life wasnt meant to be all happy,
And cheered up to be,
Depression and sadness swept across,
My soul eating out all the cheery,
And happy memories i had inside,
But why does it happen?
Why must such pain go into me?
Do i deserve such pain?
Do i deserve such suffering?
Do i deserve such depression?
It started With those few lines..then i dunno why did i stop it.so i went onto my writing corner of my mind..this only took me a few seconds to think and suddenly it became long i get crafty and and feel my heart and write i have to write..this is a gift i am fortunate to have..not to linger in my mind and write for what want..as sumone said i know how to tapped into my emotions and turn it into words.
would it be just merely simple meanings.i do not like to complicate readers with over jargon words..my poet powers are not for show but this is one of the pieces that i wish for you the "Readers" to read and analyze r u in this category..the traps of life..Ask Yourself These Questions..Even If You Cared Or Not..this is my life's story in words..i cannot change the world but you can change urself by having such realization in life..either you knew it or dont..
but this is reality of life...
To All That Know Me Well..This is a part of me that you have never knew...and it has been a secret to most of you as i thought it would be foolish to even start telling..as i am a guy..guy's do not write these thing's maybe if they were a sissy or some sorts..normally the opposite sex would condemn their thoughts in this..turning every feeling into words..but they take days but i only take secs to have a poem ready in my head..it takes me a matter of minutes to just write and write..i thanked god to enchanting me with this gift that i possess for years..plz enjoy my poem which is located below..and enjoy and i am looking forward to 3/4 of my remaining life..if i lived that long...cheerio
On My Msn:- m_utd86@hotmail.com for those who havent gotten it yet.
To Answer Your Question How Long Did I Take..Actually when i was scanning thru my poems in my folder..i spotted that there was an Unfinished Poem which had a few verses.then i thought to myself that it may be a good idea to add this and to publish on what the world has become. it only started wif these few verses
Have you ever felt emptiness before?
I guess life wasnt meant to be all happy,
And cheered up to be,
Depression and sadness swept across,
My soul eating out all the cheery,
And happy memories i had inside,
But why does it happen?
Why must such pain go into me?
Do i deserve such pain?
Do i deserve such suffering?
Do i deserve such depression?
It started With those few lines..then i dunno why did i stop it.so i went onto my writing corner of my mind..this only took me a few seconds to think and suddenly it became long i get crafty and and feel my heart and write i have to write..this is a gift i am fortunate to have..not to linger in my mind and write for what want..as sumone said i know how to tapped into my emotions and turn it into words.
would it be just merely simple meanings.i do not like to complicate readers with over jargon words..my poet powers are not for show but this is one of the pieces that i wish for you the "Readers" to read and analyze r u in this category..the traps of life..Ask Yourself These Questions..Even If You Cared Or Not..this is my life's story in words..i cannot change the world but you can change urself by having such realization in life..either you knew it or dont..
but this is reality of life...
To All That Know Me Well..This is a part of me that you have never knew...and it has been a secret to most of you as i thought it would be foolish to even start telling..as i am a guy..guy's do not write these thing's maybe if they were a sissy or some sorts..normally the opposite sex would condemn their thoughts in this..turning every feeling into words..but they take days but i only take secs to have a poem ready in my head..it takes me a matter of minutes to just write and write..i thanked god to enchanting me with this gift that i possess for years..plz enjoy my poem which is located below..and enjoy and i am looking forward to 3/4 of my remaining life..if i lived that long...cheerio
Realities Of Life
Hello Everyone.as I promised A Little Sumthing To Sum Up My 2 Decades Of Living In This World...But To Put Into A Different Way ..Enjoy. If You Wish For Your Friends To Read This..Plz Redirect Them To My Blog..Thank You
Realities Of Life
Have you ever felt dissapointed?
Have you ever felt sadness?
Have you ever felt emptiness before?
I guess life wasnt meant to be all happy,
And cheered up to be,
Depression and sadness swept across,
My soul eating out all the cheery,
And happy memories i had inside,
But why does it happen?
Why must such pain go into me?
Do i deserve such pain?
Do i deserve such suffering?
Do i deserve such depression?
My life have been tumbling,
With fears and rejections,
It seems cruel,
And i felt the world,
Was against me,
From the constant,
Eye staring and names,
It had never stop for,
The first years,
That i step foot into this world,
But life has never been fair,
It has never been,
Was i born into this world,
To walk the earth with,
The evil devils hovering,
Over my shoulders?
To carry the burden,
Of being the odd one out,
The world has never seem,
The same when my mind,
Started having these thoughts,
Things have changed,
As no one knows the true,
Meaning of love,
People lived in insecurity,
People thrive materialistic,
Posessions and they start,
Fighting and staring,
At each other eyes,
Not knowing that they are,
At fault being superficial,
As if they never were,
No one ever realized,
And even as i write,
No one would ever care,
I Was Never Born Normal,
God Never Made Me Normal,
He Has Put Me Into This,
To Realize the Cruelty,
Of humanity and how,
It can derail your thoughts,
People thought i was never,
True and what i wasnt,
The superficial being,
That i was never meant to be,
People never understand,
And do not believe in,
That beauty lies in the beholder,
Or that never judge a book by,
its cover as it seems,
Nor do i stand against,
These old rhymes,
But i have suffered a greater,
Deal from monsters and,
The superficial beings,
But i had my faith on others,
Who do not see through,
The outer skin,
Those who have lessen,
My burden as i roam freely,
Knowing that true friends,
Never leave you in,
A dilemma of suffering,
I have been greatful,
But there are beings,
Who never learn from,
Their mistakes of seeing me,
As an advantage or a disadvantage,
I have never been snobbish,
Nor cruel to them,
But their eyes were blinded,
By the superficial things,
That lie in this world.
In truth i have never lied,
To myself that i wasnt intellectual,
Nor worthy to command,
People are racist,
Being what they are,
And what they have brought up,
From that was they major importance,
In Analyzing one's personality,
To what the colour of the skin was,
And never the inner heart,
I suffered a great deal,
Losing the best moment of my life,
Was a reality of god's test,
That was true love,
That never will exist Again,
That have made me whole,
That will never make me,
Float in the air once again,
Those memories were dashed away,
It seems the greater test,
Of god has fallen upon me,
Adding to the nature,
That i have fought many,
Obstacles in my life,
I wish it would stop.
But What Do We Search In Life?
Possiblities? Love?Commitment?
Passion?Believers?Lovers?
Peace Or Harmony?
We Do Not Know These Answers,
To This Because Everyone,
Has Been Blinded By,
Material And Superficial Needs,
Even Though They,
Knew The Answers,
But Believe Or Not That,
The Answer Lies In Faith,
Hope And Bewilling Of God,
We Search For Answers,
Until We Die And,
God Reincarnate Us,
To Face His Judgement,
We Will Never Actually,
Find The Answers Of What,
We Actually Seek in life.
This Is My Cursed,
This is My Path Of Life,
This is My Journey,
This Is How I Suffered
This Is How I Would Have,
To Feel Fulfillment Of,
My Inner Pleasures,
Which Never Existed,
Forever Surrounded By Misery,
Sadness & Depression,
Searching For The Light Shine And,
Lead Me Through This Dark Mist.
Hope And Faith,
Will Be My Guide,
Towards My Inner Peace,
And Love that never,
Had Been Based By Fantasies,
And The Cruelity Of,
Life's Displeasures.
Written By Harith(Me)
Realities Of Life
Have you ever felt dissapointed?
Have you ever felt sadness?
Have you ever felt emptiness before?
I guess life wasnt meant to be all happy,
And cheered up to be,
Depression and sadness swept across,
My soul eating out all the cheery,
And happy memories i had inside,
But why does it happen?
Why must such pain go into me?
Do i deserve such pain?
Do i deserve such suffering?
Do i deserve such depression?
My life have been tumbling,
With fears and rejections,
It seems cruel,
And i felt the world,
Was against me,
From the constant,
Eye staring and names,
It had never stop for,
The first years,
That i step foot into this world,
But life has never been fair,
It has never been,
Was i born into this world,
To walk the earth with,
The evil devils hovering,
Over my shoulders?
To carry the burden,
Of being the odd one out,
The world has never seem,
The same when my mind,
Started having these thoughts,
Things have changed,
As no one knows the true,
Meaning of love,
People lived in insecurity,
People thrive materialistic,
Posessions and they start,
Fighting and staring,
At each other eyes,
Not knowing that they are,
At fault being superficial,
As if they never were,
No one ever realized,
And even as i write,
No one would ever care,
I Was Never Born Normal,
God Never Made Me Normal,
He Has Put Me Into This,
To Realize the Cruelty,
Of humanity and how,
It can derail your thoughts,
People thought i was never,
True and what i wasnt,
The superficial being,
That i was never meant to be,
People never understand,
And do not believe in,
That beauty lies in the beholder,
Or that never judge a book by,
its cover as it seems,
Nor do i stand against,
These old rhymes,
But i have suffered a greater,
Deal from monsters and,
The superficial beings,
But i had my faith on others,
Who do not see through,
The outer skin,
Those who have lessen,
My burden as i roam freely,
Knowing that true friends,
Never leave you in,
A dilemma of suffering,
I have been greatful,
But there are beings,
Who never learn from,
Their mistakes of seeing me,
As an advantage or a disadvantage,
I have never been snobbish,
Nor cruel to them,
But their eyes were blinded,
By the superficial things,
That lie in this world.
In truth i have never lied,
To myself that i wasnt intellectual,
Nor worthy to command,
People are racist,
Being what they are,
And what they have brought up,
From that was they major importance,
In Analyzing one's personality,
To what the colour of the skin was,
And never the inner heart,
I suffered a great deal,
Losing the best moment of my life,
Was a reality of god's test,
That was true love,
That never will exist Again,
That have made me whole,
That will never make me,
Float in the air once again,
Those memories were dashed away,
It seems the greater test,
Of god has fallen upon me,
Adding to the nature,
That i have fought many,
Obstacles in my life,
I wish it would stop.
But What Do We Search In Life?
Possiblities? Love?Commitment?
Passion?Believers?Lovers?
Peace Or Harmony?
We Do Not Know These Answers,
To This Because Everyone,
Has Been Blinded By,
Material And Superficial Needs,
Even Though They,
Knew The Answers,
But Believe Or Not That,
The Answer Lies In Faith,
Hope And Bewilling Of God,
We Search For Answers,
Until We Die And,
God Reincarnate Us,
To Face His Judgement,
We Will Never Actually,
Find The Answers Of What,
We Actually Seek in life.
This Is My Cursed,
This is My Path Of Life,
This is My Journey,
This Is How I Suffered
This Is How I Would Have,
To Feel Fulfillment Of,
My Inner Pleasures,
Which Never Existed,
Forever Surrounded By Misery,
Sadness & Depression,
Searching For The Light Shine And,
Lead Me Through This Dark Mist.
Hope And Faith,
Will Be My Guide,
Towards My Inner Peace,
And Love that never,
Had Been Based By Fantasies,
And The Cruelity Of,
Life's Displeasures.
Written By Harith(Me)
© Copyrighted And All Rights Reserved 2006
Saturday, May 13, 2006
Happy B-day To ME
Its Me B-day And ITs TIme To party
BZ BZ BZ Bumble bee b-day boy gonna celebrate...full b-day and my 2 decades being on earth later
BZ BZ BZ Bumble bee b-day boy gonna celebrate...full b-day and my 2 decades being on earth later
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
TIESTO CAME AND RAVE OUT AWESOMELY
18TH March 2006 Was A Memorable Experience for myself. As You Can See Above Tiesto Came To Party KL With a 5 hour set...that was a long and exhilirating nite for me.. it was excellent..The event itself i got to thank Renault for sponsoring this such oppurtunity which this event was the same weekend as F1 which i wouldnt really care less...Cuz its my dream to dance and hear him live and it was great!.. pictures are more than words everyone says eh?...more pics ^_^....first UP ..Guest DJ's DRUM CONNECTION and Local DJ Milk.
<---------Drum connection
they consist of 4 members. the other 3 are playing percussions and drums which i didnt really pay attention and took pics of it but it was cool that one of them were doing like one of those construction sites jobs and sparks started flying..No Fire unfortunately was cool for about an hour or so.
<-----Local DJ..DJ MIlk
After Drum Connection..the nite continued with a local who was spinning the wheel pretty good..i like his tunes and i have seen his face somewhere...i'm not entirely sure but it was a good build up before the main attraction came ^_^
<---The Stage!!
Cant Be Forgetting the Main Stage That He Played On Eh...They said in the papers that they built a 80 metre long stage just for DJ TIESTO to play on...it was huge was lightings and all the fancy works..in the background u may see the other members of drum connection...i was entirely focusing on the stage which looks wonderful.this is the stage that he plays on normall on big events such as this
<---DJ Tiesto--->
His Stage Entry was quite an odd one but maybe we are trying to showcase our cultural essence started of with a lion dance by the chinese and bfore he came on it was the traditional Kompang which is traditional for the malays is what we call it before the bride and groom arrive and we would hear it...and in the middle of it all was the traditional Indian dance which was quite nice and DJ TIESTO played his part of performing a great spetacle..There was Sumone who came along wif him..Guest Performer Jess
<-------JESS Showing Her Stuff To The Crowd
Well the concert was themed as in search of sunrise 5 and including her in the album as an added ambience of it all ..i didnt really like her singing i wouldnt know...and she did Fall On Stage And Made It Into A Joke Of It..Was Quite Funny And Me Without Having The Camera REady But This Pic WAs Enough :P......realize the guest DJ Pics on top where they spin their stuff...oh yeah she climb onto it and dance her way there....XD...Guys Stay Calm...^_^
<------One Of the Popular Mixed
Ah But Not Forgetting What he Played..Not Many Would Know It But The Whole Event Was To Promote His New Album Which Was Good...But The Songs That I wanted Him To Play And Wished For..Which Eventually He DID..the most popular that made him famous was JUST Be,Adagio For Strings And Love Comes Again..Sadly I Got All Videos Of All The Mixes He Played..I will Post It Up Later on A Different Site...And As Well At the end..the Song That Totally PUT HIM ONTO THE WHOLE MAP was "Traffic"..Amazingly After the 7 or 8 hours standing and dancing there i could still draw up enough energy to groove to it cuz it was soo good ^_^.....sadly how i wish it didnt end but it was undoubtly the most enjoyable time i have ever had as a RAVER....YAY..hopefully i can see him again!!...
TILL THEN I GOT TO RECOVER FROM MY ACHES IN MY BODY
Signing Off...
Monday, March 13, 2006
World's Biggest DJ COMING TO TOWN
WOH.......THis weekend IS GONNA BE A BOMB!!!!!
The Most Reknown And Most Hip And The Most Ummm Do I Have To Say More???....DJ TIESTO....Well to neone who havent heard of him
prolly doesnt like trance that much or at all............
He's Dutch...He's Cool And He's Cool Down....First TIme In Asia...
Well Pics And More Of How The Event Went Will Be Posted After
The PArty...!!!!.......
oh well...let me keep my excitement under control!...toodles for now
The Most Reknown And Most Hip And The Most Ummm Do I Have To Say More???....DJ TIESTO....Well to neone who havent heard of him
prolly doesnt like trance that much or at all............
He's Dutch...He's Cool And He's Cool Down....First TIme In Asia...
Well Pics And More Of How The Event Went Will Be Posted After
The PArty...!!!!.......
oh well...let me keep my excitement under control!...toodles for now
Monday, March 06, 2006
WOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
26th february 2006
is one day to remember
ah yes the sweet scent of victory in the air isnt it!...the day that we won another trophy just makes
me happy to be a united fan all over again! it was a fine day in cardiff that i always forgot to post it here
FOR MY MEMORIES WOOHOO!!!! its just makes me happy..Oh i'm still contend wif the victory that
for the past season there has been dissapointment...but i hope for better things to happen this time around!
hopefully more trophies from the new generation of fergie's babies!!..
united we love you!
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Rough Month As It Was
Hello And Welcome..If Anyone Still Bother To Read this Particular Blog....but neway its been wat i would call a up and down's on my life...so much has happen..so much dissapointment....its been nearly two months..lots of assignments,studying to be done..and here i am spending a couple minutes of my life whining about it...well stress relief management ^_^...stress free is a good me...stressed me...then all the pimples starts to come out...Deary me....which i dont really need at this point of time.......so much has happened..around the world if u have been keeping tabs with life around the world and not life around yourself...in the football aspect it hasnt gone to good....it sux in certain ways but it has to be said that the ball is round and anything can happen..but in the personal front...nothing has really changed around its been normal i suppose...and my head is feeling empty and i wonder why....we all feel this way anyway..alot of times i just felt i wanna just lay in bed and forget my worries...but actually i cant....its not worth that way.....i'm talking crap again...its bugs me....i'm losin it....feeling tired...well its all for now and i dont got much to tell and cheer about..hopefull on the 26th of feb *crosses fingers*.....well take care dudes and dudettes...its time for me to sign off....
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